So I'm definitely starting to wish I went to bed before 3 Because A)I'm sick as hell I cant breath and now being tired is NOT going but oh well I guess you could blame this all on being a teenager, I am actually hoping I don't have H1N1 I know I know I am sick of hearing about it but I have reason to be worried my 5 year old little sister was a confirmed case and is now in the hospital so I'm not crazy, but I still have to go to school so..... that is gong to suck I have been slacking off all last weeks so I am behind which SUCKS. BUT ANYWAYS oh yeah there where a few things I forgot to say about Emily in my big post about her 1) the reason I worry about her so much is because I am terrified that she is going to end up just like her MOTHER! or something because at this point every time my phone rings in the back of my mind I cant help but think that it is someone calling to tell me something has happened to Emily and I for some reason know I would blame myself, I know that I would think if I was there to be babysitting her I could have stopped her but I also have to balance those thought with Emily is a big girl she can take care of herself (even though I know she cant when she drinks) and that I cant stop living my life or stop having my fun to take care of her....