what exactly is my purpose... hmm lets see I need a place to vent all my everyday thoughts, questions (and some opions) that not one single person I know knows about so I created this....

Sunday, March 28, 2010

boys boys boys

boys... what can I say I love em even with the heartache and trouble they bring I prefer them over girls any day.... you can say I have had my fair share of boys the only thing is mine seem to all come at once there is Skylar,Joey,Eric,Chris and of course Andrew
Skylar, as time goes on and I meet other guys I see us just being friends we are very different in a lot of ways and our interests just arnt the same
Joey, AWWW Joey he is one of my latest issues... I would love nothing more but to be with Joey I am even totally OK with him wanting Nichole (because I know that will never happen) I wish he would make some kind of move to let me know he cares, even though he wants Nichole for the moment there is still something that draws me to him...the question is how long well I be willing to wait for him????
Eric,of course probely the hottest guy I have ever met I am so confused by him its not even funny I know he has feeling for me but fines Evey excuse in the book to not let me know... then turns around and makes me feel like everything between us can be OK and then not talk to me for months, not going to lie it hurt but it came to the point that I was done waiting so I have deleted his number and am trying to forget him... even though deep deep down I still wait.....
Chris, oh Chris (as in ashlyns Chris) I'm so happy that he got away from her but I didn't think that me being there and talking to him would draw him to me in a more than Friend way, I hated pulling the friend card on him because deep down I know that if him and ashlyn wernt him and ashlyn to that extreme and I wasn't so involved in it that I would so be attracted to him... he is still the perfect guy but I just cant bring myself to get over it....
Andrew, lol still my favorite person in the world although it seems like we don't talk nearly as often as I would like